A few different people have suggested that I create a personal blog....for the longest time I shrugged it off, but now (obviously) I've changed my mind. I have no intention of become an Ann Landers or any other advice columnist nor am I claiming to be any type of writer, so if that's what you're expecting stop reading right now. I guess I'm making this blog because I'm a recent college graduate trying to figure out what to do with my life (like many other fellow graduates) and instead of annoying my family and friends with my constant, wavering indecision; I'll try to work it out through blogging and if they decide to read this and comment/question me and my thoughts then AWESOME, but if they decide to ignore it my feelings won't be hurt, but I'll still bother them for advice with a desperate hope that they will make a decision for me or at least help me make a decision.
I am an extremely indecisive person. I have a difficult time trying to decide where to have lunch, so trying to decide what to do with my life is almost overwhelming to me. I've applied for the Peace Corps and have been accepted and nominated - supposedly I'm to be leaving this summer, but it's not official yet. This sounds like a done deal right? You couldn't be farther from the truth. I applied almost a year ago when I graduated from college and was "ready" BUT this is such a long process that in the mean time I've gotten a "real" job, live in a non-campus, rat-free apartment, pay tons of bills and student loans - it's almost like I'm an actual adult! So here's the dilemma: I'm finally becoming an adult and settling into a comfortable groove and now I may be totally turned upside down by leaving and serving for two years in a foreign country. What is a girl to do?
Since I haven't received my official invitation from the Peace Corps yet, I'm procrastinating (another wonderful quality I possess) making my decision. Even though I keep telling myself that I'll make a decision when the official invitation arrives, I wrestle with trying to make a decision almost every day. I'm continually flip flopping on whether I should go or stay and I'm desperately hoping for a sign to come to me, ultimately something that will make the decision for me. Well THE sign hasn't arrived yet, but an interesting dilemma recently arose. I had an old crappy car that recently traveled it's last mile, which leaves me in the interesting predicament of having no car. Not having a car is not feasible for me, so the dilemma is trying to force me to stop the procrastination and make a decision already. Do I buy a car which will keep me in America and stick to my comfortable life and surroundings? Do I bike, bus, rent and borrow cars to keep the procrastination alive and avoid making a decision until the absolute deadline?
